Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Hope makes you smile

Writing about sorrow, grief, loneliness, anguish, gloom and despair is so easy. Humans naturally tend to deviate towards the negative. There are so few of us who are perpetually looking at the brighter side of things.

Hmm…moving along these lines, I’m racking my brains trying to scour out positive thoughts and interestingly, I can’t think of any! Something to ponder about. Wait, there’s hope that puts a smile on my face. I’ve made drastic changes in my life, and I know for a fact there’s one particular decision I’ve taken that’s hanging in the balance. Will it materialize into something positive, flitter into the darkness or turn into something ugly? Hope is what makes me feel like this one incident could steer me towards the road to cheerfulness.

I’ve always been a day-dreamer. My musings have taken me through some mind-boggling experiences. Someone once asked me what I was thinking, and I replied “Skiing”. She didn’t believe me. Sounds ridiculous, I know, but I really do lose myself in reveries like this. I can’t get to these places, or revel in those experiences, so nobody can really stop my mind from wandering down this exhilarating path.

There are a few special people who’ve brought joy to my life. They’ve offered me comfort and protection in ways that I cherish dearly. One flirts outrageously, makes me feel like I can still hope for a tomorrow, another has thrown a long life line in the darkness of my depression. One makes me feel so special; my heart aches for something – I don’t know what. Every single one of these friends has not failed to brighten up my days. My friends have been truly wonderful and last but not least, my family’s unfailing support has given me the courage to hold my head high instead of feeling ashamed.

I have so much to be positive about :-)

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