I want to cry

- for loving again
- for believing in people
- for losing love
- for trusting
- for believing in second chances
- for being taken for granted
- for caving into pressure
- because he let people wreck our relationship
- because he stomped over my feelings
- because he made me an option when I made him my priority
- because he lied to me
- because I tried to make it work while he didn’t do anyting
- because I hoped that it would change
- because he used me
- because I’m so tired of trying
- because he hurt me over and over again, and I let him
- because I am a fool to believe that he cared, that he loved, that he wanted anything more from me than a stop-gap.
- that he didn't care enough to even put up a small fight
- that other people and other things are always more important than me

The song: I hate myself for loving you

Midnight, gettin' uptight. Where are you?
You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you.
Hey, there, It's a fact they're talkin' in town.
I turn my back and you're messin' around.
I'm not really jealous, don't like lookin' like a clown.
I think of you ev'ry night and day.
You took my heart, then you took my pride away.
I hate myself for loving you .
Can't break free from the the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you .
Daylight, spent the night without you.
But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do.
I won't be as angry 'bout the hell you put me through.
Hey, man, bet you can treat me right.
You just don't know what you was missin' last night.
I wanna see your face and say forget it just from spite.
I hate myself for loving you .